When I was thirteen? Fourteen?
I had my first crush... But wasn’t in a relationship...
Since he was my best friend...
When I was fifteen...I had my first relationship...15...is not really young to have a relationship (since nowadays people are in relationship at like 12?13?) but I think most people on that age are curious in how relationship works or feels like.. Curiosity was really a big thing for that kind of age.
Don’t tell me you don’t have crushes or feel your heart is popping out when you think he/she is looking at you. So that’s how I get into relationship with him...
He’s a really nice and funny guy, we talked, and somehow, I can hear my heartbeats and it’s like some kind of “thunder-shock” between us...
But because of some reasons...
Our relationship ended...
At that time... I though that’s what so called love is...
But that was just the feeling towards a guy more than a friend but not love...
Now I know what is so called love is...
16 Feb 2010... Is the date that I can’t and will never forget...
160210...On that day, I started to know what so called love is...
I was 16 and he was 24.. some people who didn’t know might goes like “wow~”
But..who cares.. =.=
In the world of love, age is just a number...
We were like so sweet lovey-dovey... People around us were jealous of us...
And I was proud that I have a boy friend like him~
We also have awesome and happy and sweet date whenever we go out for date...
Ryu Loo Jian Hao...He’s nice, funny, sweet, honest, trustworthy, kind, smart, tall...
Most of all... I LOVE HIM LIKE CRAZY... I really do love him so much...I still do..
I thought that our love will last forever... but I was wrong...
Our sweet relationship ends on 18 December 2010...
It’s going to be a month soon since we broke up...
But... I don’t seem like I’ve move on or forgot him or let go of him...
He’s still in my heart as how it was used to be...
My love towards him didn’t become less but more...
These times without him...
Make me love him more and more and make me miss him more and more...
I miss everything I’ve done with him...
The way we used to sms...
The way he used call me...
The way we used to chat...
The way he hug me...
The way he cares about me...
The way he love me...
The way he hold my hand...
The way he touch my hair...
The way he kiss me...
The way he make me laugh...
The way he look at me...
I miss everything about him...
Although it’s just been like almost a month since we broke up... but I feel like a year...
Every time we argue, he was the one who was being tolerance...
I was young, immature, naive... My thought was very selfish...
My life without him is a world without a sun... It’s really bad...
I really miss him... I really do... Whenever I think about him my tears just come out...
I mean... I don’t have to think about him... He just pass by in my brain like that... make me can’t stop think about him...
I went to 1u & Sunway Pyramid few days ago with family...
Those two places are where we normally go for date...
Every place I went at there... Every place I pass by... Every corner I saw...
Make myself remind back our memory...
Those tiny-little-sweet memories we have made just pop-up in my brain...
And that make me can’t stop my tears from coming out...
I really miss everything... I didn’t know life will be like this without him...
Life without him it’s really a big change in my life...didn’t get better but get worse...
Anyways...
Breaking up was a real sudden thing for me...
Maybe sometimes a break up is not a bad decision...
Giving time to both being apart will make us realize what is love ...
I guess the decision he made was right...
Maybe he was trying to give some time to me... and want me to realise the things I should realise...
As time pass by, I grew up, maybe not so much but..I grew up...
Time being with him taught me what Love should be...
Time being without him taught me I shouldn’t have treated him like that...
Now, I know what I should’ve done and what I shouldn’t have done...
Now I realised... but I guess it’s too late..
He’s not with me anymore... and he’ll never be...
Ryu Loo Jian Hao... I LOVE YOU...
The first present I gave to him... A water bottle, because he always dont drink water and get sick.. =(
(At 1u wong kok & coins wording made by him~<3 )
(Present from him... Because I wanted this phone, but it's with him now due to some reason..)
Our first time to Sunway Lagoon
100th Anniversary
(Our couple ring and 2 pairs of bracelets~)
(Crazy time with him~ Miss everything... )
(Handmade birthday card on his birthday~)
(I made cake for the very first time in my life for his birthday~)
(Quicksilver wallet for his birthday~)
(Our very first concert~MTV World Stage~)
(Couple handphone chain~)
(Self-deco the box~ and bought ear ring to a guy for the first time~)
(200th anniversary cake~ A Surprise by him~)
(Necklace from him as 200th anniversary present~ cute~)
(200th anniversary~)
(First teddy bear present from him~ He bought it when he went for Thailand Trip~)
(He brought me to took LRT~ had so much fun with him~ =D )
(Second time to Sunway Lagoon~xP )
(He went into hospital... and... sorry about what've happened...=( I shouldn't have done that.. )
Bye bye my love... Hope you'll be happy...
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