Haiz...

I feel so stupid day by day.. after 6th Jan... the day I did super duper stupid mistake.. I'm having insomnia... I cant sleep... haiz... but..I seriously look normal in school.. I think noone will believe I'm having insomnia..xP btw... I feel really really stupid... Missing him everyday... Hoping to see him everyday.. everytime I on9..wil check he got on9 or not.. even he got on9 also not dare to find him chat.. haiz... why cant I just let him go??? Let go off him from my brain from my heart??? I cant forget the scene he wave hand to me that day.... I cant forget his face... I cant forget his voice.. haiz... I hope he will give me a chance... first chance...and last chance... If he cannot give me even a chance... I'm okay with it.. because.. I didnt expect too much.. and I'm always will be happy with small things.. like.. just saw him pass by...I'll be happy as well.. haiz..how stupid it is... I love him... oh shit...what am I talking about now... haiz...I really..seriously...have to give up him....but..how???