Haiz..

Cananyoneteachmehowtoletgsomeoneyoulovesomuch?

becauseIdontknowhowtoletgosomeoneilovesomuch...

icantstopthinkingabouthim..cantstopthinkingaboutourmemory...

cantforgetaboutitevenforasecond...

evenwhenisleep..everythingshowupinmydream...

Last day of 2010...

Today is... 31.12.2010...

Last day of 2010...

Many things happened this year...

Sad, Angry, Happy, Touching...

Many many different things has happened...

for me... 2010 is a happy but sad year...

haiz...i dont know what should i write anymore...

cant stop thinking of some stuff..

that's why on my laptop and start blogging..

but... end up mentioning abt that stuff again...

Bye bloggie... I dont want to blog today anymore...=(

=(

i told myself...

cannot sms him...

cannot try to call him...

cannot think of him...

cannot look back our photo...

cannot think back our memory...

I told myself all these every second..

but.. guess what.. i cant do it..

I cant stop want to sms & call him...

I cant stop think of him...

I cant stop look back our photo...

I cant stop think back our memory...

it's not easy to let go of him and move on...

it's serious..seriously not easy..

I mean.. I CANT LET GO & MOVE ON...

I want to be cool and let go of him and be friends..

but..

I really cant do it...

Even I fall sleep...

I dream of him...

I dream of our memory...

Once I wake up...

I realise it was just a dream...

and cry...

I know that...

think back our memory...

look at our photo...

miss him..

crying... 

wont make things better...

wont make things get back to how it used to be...

I miss everything...

I miss you...

I miss the way you called me...

I miss the way we chat...

I miss the way you hold my hand...

I miss the way you hug me...

I miss the way you kiss me...

I really really miss everything...

but... I miss you the most...

I still love you so much...

and I don't think i can let go of you... =(

I love you... ♥

MERRY CHRISTMAS~~~~~

It's been awhile since i blog!

It's been awhile since i blog...

well, there's nothing much to blog nowadays...

2010 is going to end in 5 days...

which means.. 2011 is here~ and I'm going to be 17 years old soon~=D

time pass very fast..

hmm... let me thing what have happened in this year...

too much to mention..

btw.. I just broke up with the boy I love so much... ='(

it's really difficult to move on... actually...I CANT MOVE ON..

seriously.. I know I have to..but I really cant move on..

we were in relationship for more than 10 months..

and both of us were really serious about this relationship..

I wont tell the reason why we broke..

but..yea...we broke up..which mean..I'm SINGLE... =/

I might be extremely hyper or emo...

my mood might simply change without reason in short time..

please understand me...

but I'm sure i will be okay after some times?

since even if i get cold..i will get well after some time..

since even if i have fever..I will be alright after some time..

so.. i believe..after some time... I've move on.. and i will be alright?

Just need time to move on.. I don't know how long it will take..

but...just..wait and wait and wait..

alright...i should stop with this sad story..

which will effect my current mood..

For now..I should study hard for my mocks on January...

and my IGCSE Exam on May..

GOOD LUCK for myself~! =)

oh yeah....

MERRY CHRISTMAS~!!!!!!

CHUAH JU EE~!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY~~~~

LOVE YOU LOTSSSSSSSSS~~

Blog again~~~

Chuah Ju Ee~~~~
I blog ald la~~~~and set public ald..
JUST FOR YOU~ hahahahha~see~~~~how kind I am~xP
I post many of the old post ald just now..
and some i dont remember the date..
like...Teacher's day~ Green Awareness Day~
I think that's all i dont remember..xP
Happy or not???

Happy Birthday Ken Kit~

Ken Kit didi~~~

Happy Birthday~~~

Happy Sweet 16~~~

Happy Birthday Renee~

Happy Birthday Renee~~~

Enjoy your 15 birthday~~~

Love you always my awesome friend~~~

MTV World Stage Live in Malaysia 2010~

MTV WORLD STAGE LIVE IN MALAYSIA 2010

woot~woot~woot~

went to MTV World Stage Live in Malaysia 2010 + after party yesterday~

Let me begin my story from yesterday morning~ =)

first, i went to Sunway Pyramid with my brother(Yeon Wan)~

Yeon Wan went to arcade to play and meet his friend - Andrew Kim..

And...Me~

I wait for my boy friend~Jian Hao~

After i meet him..i realise that he is not in a good mood~

guess why? haha~u all never gonna know why~

only we will know..

went to T.G.I Fridays for makan~ dont know it's breakfast or lunch..

we went in..order what we want to eat...

we didnt really talk.. didnt even smile..

Just eat and feed each other..

imagine how funny it was..xP

I cant stop smiling when I think back our situation...

no talk~ no smile~ but juse feed each other..xD

after finish eating..just dreaming for awhile..

and went somewhere and did something to make him not moody anymore..

I'm not gonna tell anyone where did we went and what did we do..xP

shhh~it's a secret~hahaahhahahah~

it's secret between me and my boy friend~~kehahahahha~

after that..around 4pm..

meet up my brother to go for mtv..

oh ya~that shit Andrew Kim..never show up.. he even ask my bro to get him a ticket..

I asked Jia Ling's friend to get it..

but lucky jia ling didnt go get the ticket from her friend..

he is such a jerk.. make my brother wait for him for so many hours..

at last he told my brother it was just a prank... =.=

WTF~

but..nvm..I'm not gonna care about that jerk.. =.=

anyways...after meet my brother...

I introduce Jian Hao to Yeon Wan and introduce Yeon Wan to Jian Hao~

they say hi to each other and went to MTV World Stage entrance..

there was so so so soooooooooo many people~

wanted to find Renee they all..but couldnt find them..

since there was so many ppl~

(They all as in..Renee~Keith~Renee's causin~Nicole Ng~Andrew Ng~Hao Min~Jia Ling~Jia QI~)

so...just stand beside the queue where the place which have shade..

but it was still super hot~~

wait and wait and wait and wait and wait~

3 new MTV VJ was going to record a shoot that they interview with ppl there right infront of me..

then I saw Nicole Kylie~

she was looking for Jia Ling~because her ticket was with Jia Ling..

so..I help Nicole to look for JIa Ling..

I called Jia Ling and look for her..

go beside the queue and go inside...xP

then I hear Renee calling me...

They was standing in the queue beside me..

so...we kinda cut line??? and stand with them..wait together...

the gate suppose to open at 4pm..

but didnt open untill around 5..

then...5pm only open the gate..=.= Damn~

(MTV Tickets~for me~Jian Hao~Yeon Wan~)

after the gate open..we hold our hand to go in to cheack our ticket..

since there was so many ppl and keep pushing and pulling..

Jian Hao take care of Yeon Wan..take him beside..

and yeon wan was like kinda shy and dont go near him..

then Jian Hao say "come nearer~I wont eat u~ "

hehehehe~my brother said he is funny~and he likes him~ =D

after check our ticket and begs..

we finally get in..

the stuff from mtv gave us mtv raincoat and fan~

we find a place to stand...

and I give the glow in dark stick I bought to them~

to shake~ ehehhehehe~

after awhile...

start to RAIN~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG...we wear our rain coats on...

rain for quite a long time...

my shoe get all wet..and both of my feet get a big cut because of the shoe..T^T

pain~~~~

rain get not that heavy..after some time...

(People behind me~~~)

(me and my baby~ under the rain~)

suddenly rain very very very heavy again~~~

(3 of us~)

(3 of us again~)

wait for the world stage to start more than a hour...

finally~ the MTV VJ from MTV Asia~MTV Korea~MTV China~MTV Japan~

come out and host this year's MTV World Stage~

after around 1 hour again...

Finally~the first performance start..

Malaysian band.. Bunkface~

they are awesome~

It's so much better than other Malaysian band~

their song is nice too~

BUNKFACE~ Prom Queen~ Through my window~

that's all I know about their song~xP

After finish Bunkface's perform..

we wait for aroud 1 hour again...

then..

Wonder Girls~

(they come out from that cage~xP)

(Nobody~nobody but you~)

after Wonder Girls' performance..

wait for long long long time again..

all of us get tired ald...

Renee they all went missing..cant find them..

so we out from the crowd and go grab something to eat..

you can find water every place~since it's water park..

all the water just filled there..=.=

bought 2 pizza~ total 8 pieces~

Jian Hao ate 1 piece~since he ate just now~

I eat 2 pieces~ and yeon wan eat 5 pieces~

Jian Hao was shocked when he saw yeon wan eat that much..

xD

after finish eating...

took some photos~

we took off our shoe~bcos our shoe is totally wet~soaked by rain water~

so our feet feel really uncomfortable~xP

(mine and Jian Hao's smelly feet~xP)

(Yeon Wan's smelly feet~xP)

(My blue glow-in-dark ear ring~ Jian Hao took mine~)

(hehehe~not bad~but my face only show half..xP)

(okay~nice one~buy JH's face is like.."o.O" look bit funny~ )

after take photo~and do some random stuff~ go back to the crowd~

for Tokio Hotel~

they sing lots of songs..

we just listen to few songs and go back to sit down..

not that interested on Tokio Hotel~

sorry for TH's fans..but they were kinda gay..o.o

so we just go back to sit down and listen to their song and chit chat~

after some time..we get back to crowd again..

why? for..KATY PERRY~~~

while waiting for Katy Perry..

rain again~!!! we all throw away our rain coat just now ald..=(

but still rain~rain~RAIN~!!!

my boy friend keep hug me.. >.<

and put his hand on my head to block the rain~

hehe~so nice of him~

and...

we took some photo again~

due to that stupid rain..raining non-stop~

all of us look horrible~

(my brother~yeon wan~ he is force by me to take photo~xP)

(me and jian hao~with his hornly eye~xP)

wait and wait and wait..

FINALLY~~~~~~ KATY PERRY IS HERE~~~~

(Carlifonia Girls~ I love her stage~ lots of sweet stuff on there~)

(oopssy~~~)

(peacock~cock-cock-cock~ love that song~)

(she climb up~~~)

(and the big 2 white and 2 black ball come to us~)

(hang on there and sing~)

(and she JUMP!!!!)

while katy perry is singing~

my baby Jian Hao keep hugging me~ and block the rain on head~

my brother keep turn around to talk to me..

so we wasnt able to kiss under the rain~during the concert~xP

and..at last...we did kiss..

and...yea...my brother turn around and saw us..

but he just turn back..>.<

so shy~~~~ >.<

hehehehe~ but it was really sweet~

kissing under the rain~xP

after Katy Perry's performance..

there was Wonder Girl's bonus stage..

we went into X-Zone for that~

it was around 1:30am~

after MTV World Stage is finish...

we went for after party~at The Opera~

Renee wasnt able to go in..bcos the place is only for 18 and above~

and the people who check catch Renee~

even Keith and my brother also able to go..

but she wasnt able to go in..

sad for her...

Meet up Keith and Luke inside~

we get to drink 4 free drinks~

I drink soft drink...=(

and other people like my brother and keith and luke drink beer~~~~

after one glass of beer Yeon Wan & Luke drink vodca..

even JH also drink vodca..

he drink vodca ok la..understand..cos he is OLD~xD

I cant drink alcohor~ dont like that taste of it..xP

hang out and The Opera untill 3am~then went back home~xP

Renee's Birthday Pool Party~

Too many fun things happened..

Lazy to write blog today...

but there is one thing I want to write..

we throw Renee the birthday girl into the pool..

and that cause her phone broken...xD

hahahhaha~~sorry Renee~ =)

Shu Kee's Birthday~

Yo~Shu Kaiii the Mangkaiii~~~~

Happy Birthday daughter~~~

you are 15 now~

Enjoy your birthday with lots of lots of fun ya~~~

Nick's farewell party~

( Nick & Juee look like couple..xP Oopsy~ Shu Kee & I became light bulb~xP SO BRIGHT~~~!!!)


(CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZY~~~!!!!)


( FRIENDS FOREVER~!!! )

My alien jie jie Nick is going to Ausie to study~

So~~~ we prepare a small farewell for him with a SWEET T-SHIRT~

Nicky jie jie~ Good luck & take care in Ausie ya~~~

See you again when u come back to Malaysia~ =)